Saturday, March 17, 2007

hey all,

holidays have come to an end (everyone say crap!) and i'm stuck with a pile of homework. i'll try to work through the night. sigh.

anyway, i really hope that this easter many people will come to Christ through our cell. GOGOGO! haha. pray for me: i'm getting quite lame recently.

anyway, i hope that all of us will bring like lots of people from our sch. i believe that if you are able to make that step, it will really help you in your spiritual growth. as for me, i still need God to give me courage in approaching my classmates.

frankly, the reason why i don't have the courage to approach is because i fear rejection. seriously. it's like i'm one of the few people in my class who are christians. although they know i'm a christian, but i still do not dare to approach them and invite them to our christmas service. it's like quite awkward for me. truthfully, i haven't invited anyone to church from my school before. ah well. i really hope that the Lord will give me the extra courage!

trust /trʌst/
–noun
1.
reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.

trust. that was the 1st defination out of 24. I don't fully trust the Lord yet. i hope it's a yet. As i mentioned, i can't even trust the Lord with my studies. because it's like: come on! can the Lord actually help you get into the top band? can the Lord actually put all the information into your mind? yeah. that's how i honestly feel. i thought about it, and my answer to the 1st question is yes, the 2nd is no.

the Lord is able to give you the peace of mind, the focus for you to study. such that you will excell. that is what i need. but i haven't committed my studies to the Lord yet. I don't know why, but my studies is really the main obstacle in my relationship with the Lord. this world works on trust. hence, comes along betrayal

be·tray /bɪˈtreɪ/
–verb (used with object)

2.
to be unfaithful in guarding, maintaining, or fulfilling: to betray a trust.

from dictionary.com once again. it mentions to be unfaithful. yes, we have betrayed the Lord time and again. we are sinners, after all. we break His laws. we betray His trust in us. His confidence in us. when someone betrays us, we can sometimes accept it if he makes it up to us, right? Hence, why don't we just try to make it up to the Lord. during worship, let us worship Him wholheartedly. Lose ourselves in the midst of his awesome presence. that is a stage i hope to reach in my worship soon.

so, let us make it up to the Lord this easter by bringing all your pre-believing friends. let us fill the house of the Lord with worship, spoken from the very depths of our hearts. let us make a turning point for this world. turn the world to the Lord. not money, the Lord. not acceptance from the world, Love from the Lord. not materials, but salvation. let the whole world be saved. into the eternal glory of the Lord. we can start with easter, or even our next service. let us help those in need. reach out to all our pre-believing friends. for when two or more people are congregated, the presence of the Lord will definately fill His house. let us work towards saving the world as our greatest target, starting with a smaller target of our batch/class. i believe we can do it.

Enjoy term 2. fill your life with the Holy Spirit, let Him take control over your life, and see the wonders which will take place in any aspect of your life.

Jae