Monday, July 09, 2007

Monday. 9 July 07.

sigh, you know something, i had a really bad day today. i feel like some loser now, and i feel like banging my head on the table or something. i don't know la. ahhh. heck. people, just, have, bad, days.

i'm like studying for my math test tomorrow, and i just can't remember everything. like you keep trying the same stuff again but you just can't get it. and i'm really super stressed. this test makes up half of my entire grade for math for this term.

well thats that.

but i had this really bad tiff with a friend at school today, and i feel really upset and down now honestly.

it was a misunderstanding between us, you see. and i just didn't mean to like say all those things i told her.

told you i'm a stupid loser la huh. what kind of friend am i.

and i feel sad not just cause i should have thought before i told her, its just recently she and i aren't close anymore. she's one of those people i can feel happy even when i face problems. as long as we talk and just say "hi" or a little "i'm damn bored" makes a smile upon muh face. (:

well there was this once she was telling me about her problems online and i took the chance to bring Jesus into it. like tell her God loves her and Jesus can provide solutions to her problems and stuff. i think i've shared this before. its that same friend.

but i realized, ever since then, we don't feel like close friends anymore. and slowly, we just don't seem to talk to each other as much anymore.

i don't know why.

sighh.

i'm a stupid loser, huh. what kind of life is mine. its so stupid and so sucky.

i mean, i have other stuff that i've decided not to tell anyone anymore that makes my life suck totally.

sigh.


alisa.