Friday, February 01, 2008

Friday, 1 February 08

i wonder why we always seem to lose friends. and right when we lose them, RIGHT when we lose them.

is when we realized there's perharps nothing we can do to be a friend to that friend we've lost. that we feel like a complete failure. failed attempts, failures, failures.

is that the good times we had together, are just memories. and not even deep ones, just plain memories.

is that we miss all those memories. the good times we had. the times we helped each other. and all because, ALL BECAUSE of one small, yet stupid mistake made, its over.

"i should have" and "sorry"s are a little too late, no second chances given..we're only left to dwell in feeling regretful and like a complete failure.

why?


now i realized that everyone of us really isn't perfect. and im like "yeah God, i accept that im not perfect and i'll fail. A LOT of times."

but im also like

why do i have to lose a friend who's close to my heart just because of a mistake i made?

or rather, why that friend, why that friend?


its just so. so, stupid, really that our mistakes can just. change so much things in our lives for the worse. and that all these changes can't be reversed. no "its okay. its the past, i'll forgive you.". no second chances. only failures, only regrets.

why can't second chances be given? we're all not perfect anyway. but then again, life isn't all that fair and lovely and easy is it? but why can't we just start afresh, anew after every mistake? and why is it so hard to leave all of that behind? why can't we think about the future good things, or the good things that are happening now, and leave the bad ones behind, is it really that hard a thing to do?


ahh. searching for the answers and thinking. but anyway! sorry if my posts are boring. i always wanna post here but i dont know what to type thats why i havent been posting a lot ever since late sec two. ah well.

but yeah! hope you guys have had a great week at school and all ((: will see you guys at cell tomorrow. im so dead man, have like this 20 page report to do for econs and its due on valentines. )): haha. bye!


alisa :D