Saturday, September 20, 2008

Now that you're near -Marty Sampson/Hillsong

(bridge)
And i will sing for you always
'Cause in Your presense God
Is where i want to stay



It's so easy to sing these songs. there're the fast songs, the slow songs. there are worship orders. like the speed of songs have to be gradual. you've to pick the correct songs. you have to have the worship team jumping up and down to get everyone hyped up. you have to have the drums to get you into the beat of the song. or the sad tunes to get you to reflect.

you have to wait for the worship leader to lead you into the chorus. lead you into a song. get you to stand up. you know how whenever we enter into worship centre we would just sit and talk waiting for the worship leader or PJ or someone to ask us to stand and pray and yeah just to get us ready.


why?


i admit. i'm guilty of this. i'm ashamed. no matter what you say, i'm ashamed. it's not that i don't care. i don't dare to start praising him the moment i step into the sacred place. there're no excuses for me. no excuses. and i doubt that would change anytime soon.

i don't dare to stand up and be special. to be that leader. i guess it's cause i fear that no one would follow! imagine you walk in and everyone's sitting down and it's not time yet. and you start singing and worshipping and everyone goes quiet and stares at you. the whole centre's lights are still on. the band isnt up yet. and there you are singing with everyone staring at you. if that'd happen to me i don't know how i'd respond. thats the fear in all of us isn't it.

we need the preacher to crack some funny thing every few minutes just to ensure that we don't wander away. why? if we were hungry enough for the knowledge and the truth of the word of God we wouldn't need the pastor to do some attention seeking thing! it wouldn't even matter if he was speaking in a monotone and just reading off his script! We would be devouring every single word he says because every word he says is blessed with the Holy Spirit and if that is what we are seeking after we would be picking up every single thing for the full length of the sermon.

even if we are in a stuffy place there is no aircon no comfortable seats and we are sitting on the cold hard ground it would not matter.

but that's not us, is it.


exams are coming for most of us. the older people are having their promos. the sec 4s are having their Os. the sec 1s are having their first major exam in secondary school. the sec 2s are having streaming. the sec 3s are having exams too.

if i may ask one thing.

how are you living your life today.



jae(: